Filed under: Job description
For many of my students, school is the only stable place in their lives. It feels weird to be viewed as such a rock in the lives of students whose lives outside of school are many times chaotic and dangerous.
Sometimes a student will do almost nothing but sleep at school. On the surface, this is an offense that most teachers would not tolerate. But for some, their father deals drugs from the home, their mothers bring in new boyfriends every night, or sell themselves for drugs or money. How’s a kid supposed to sleep through that? Or they’re awoken by gun shots, and have to sleep on the floor to be safe. How about the kid whose “guardian” watches porn in the same room they’re trying to sleep in? Sometimes school is the only “safe” place to sleep.
Many students come to school sick. Many come to school after being beaten up on the street or by their “guardian.” I have had students who have lost family members, even mothers or fathers, that don’t miss a day of school.
Sometimes students will do nothing but mouth off to staff and other students at school; again, an offense that many teachers wouldn’t tolerate. But many kids have so much anger and hate built up inside from what they has to deal with. They knows that they can “vent” and we as teachers can’t slap them or throw them across the room, or deprive them of their food. If they act up we can’t sexually assault them, or verbally abuse them. If they get into a fight with another student, they know we’re not supposed to let it get out of hand; we’ll step in and break up the fight. Sometimes school is the only “safe” place to let out your feelings.
Dealing with inappropriate behavior is complicated. Knowing what lies behind inappropriate behavior is useful in addressing the real issues; but those issues are even more complicated. On my school-issued identification badge it lists my job title as Teacher/Counselor. I probably spend more time doing the latter. I don’t mind. My students need to know how to act appropriately, even more than they need the academics. If they don’t learn how to act, they’ll end up dead, or in prison – a burden to society. Someone must teach them the skills. Someone must empower them.
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Before school started, I decided I was going to try something totally different, a different approach to teaching and keep my students engaged in their academics. I decided to not use any paper.
I wanted learning to be interactive, and fun. I wanted my students to feel normal, better yet, feel like they were doing things that students in regular school couldn’t do.
This is going on week #3 at school. So far, my experiment with going paperless has been going very well. Because of a large donation from a local university, our school has computers in every room. The classes have four computers in each room even though most teachers don’t use them, or don’t know what to do with them. Since I helped get them, and my constant lobbying, I have 12 computers in my room, enough for every student. They are all old computers, but they work for the most part.
All the assignments and projects are done on the computer. Most of my students have zero to no computer skills, and most cannot type to save their lives. But even so, they are actively engaged and enjoy doing the work on computers. By the time the year is done, they will know quite a bit I hope. I don’t have the computers networked together yet, but I’m getting there; that will help quite a bit. But it’s nice not to have all the papers and junk lying around. It’s easy to be organized and keep up with their progress. I haven’t even blown the fuses on the wall except for twice.
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One of the provisions of No Child Left Behind is to phase out everything but a regular education diploma. This means no more certificates of attendance, and no more special education diplomas for students with disabilities. This may not mean much to some people, but to me and my special education students, this will be a catastrophic change. Most of my students will work to the best of the ability, showing great effort, but will never pass the high-stakes standardized tests that are required for high school graduation with a regular education diploma. So, if the student completes their goals as stated in their IEP (Individualized Education Plan), they will receive a special education diploma. While it is not the same as a regular diploma, it still shows their effort and dedication to school, and that they have achieved something notable. And often employers only ask if they have a diploma, not what kind they have. So my students can still get a job after high school. Many of them, if they have the ability, can also get into a technical school or even community college with a special education diploma.
With the phasing out of the special education diploma, my students would receive nothing unless they pass the high-stakes standardized tests. No diploma whatsoever. This will have a catastrophic effect on the drop-out rate. What incentive is there for the student to stay in school? If they know they cannot pass the test, they will give up. Not only will the graduation rate go down (currently 60% in my district), but the drop-out will skyrocket. With no diploma, my students will be the left behind.
Filed under: Complaints & Rants
About 80% of my students are at poverty or below, the rest are not far off. Based on family income, the child is to receive a free lunch provided by the school, paid for by the government. Sounds like a good service…but that’s until you see what the lunch is….
MENU:
Hamburger and fries. Everyday? Yes. There will sometimes be an alternative selection like chicken patty and corn, or turkey casserole with cabbage (many times these choices are very scary). Milk, juice, and fruit also come with the lunch.
QUALITY:
The burgers and assorted side almost always arrive warm or cold, never fresh. Our school has no kitchen. Our lunches are provided by a local high school, so a representative is sent over to pick them all up. By the time he arrives back with the lunches, most of them are not hot anymore.
It has even been found that sometimes burgers were green, or not fully cooked, or that the bun was moldy. Complaints to the school of origin got us nowhere. Even when a call was placed to school dietician for the school district, she assured us that the lunches were healthy and beneficial to our students. Yeah, what lunch are her kids eating?
NO LOGIC:
I’m still waiting to receive the nutritional fact sheet about the lunch. Burgers and fries everyday? Healthy? And French fries are considered the vegetable side dish? It’s unbelievable. And 75% of my students are African American and many of them are lactose-intolerant, yet they are given milk everyday. The juice says on the box that it is only 5% real juice, and the rest is sugar and artificial colors and flavors.
Is this how we are to feed the poor?
All I want to know is if this is what the urban city schools are eating for lunch, what does a school lunch in the suburbs look like?
Filed under: Complaints & Rants
I just happened to catch a radio sermon of some religious conservative preacher the other day. I’m not sure how it was tuned to such a fire-and-brimstone AM station. (What’s AM again? How far are they behind the times?) Once I was cued to the target in his cross-hairs I was had to keep listening. He was decrying public schools as liberal wastelands that corrupted our youth with a new religion of secular humanism. Wow.
Do people understand the reasoning behind the wall between church and state? Maybe not. Straight from the First Amendment it says, “Congress shall pass no law respecting the establishment of religion or prohibiting the free exercise thereof.”
I frequently hear people complain “Well, kids these days can’t even pray in public school anymore.” Well if you believe that, it’s a lie. Kids can pray anytime they want to and school officials cannot stop them. The free exercise of religion by a student cannot be stopped under the First Amendment. They can wear religiously related clothing and jewelry, they can talk openly about their religion, and they can talk to other students openly about religion. The only restriction is if there is what is termed a significant disruption caused at the school by the students’ religious talk. If the student was harassing another about religion, or if a student was loudly preaching and calling for repentance on the playground (a true story), these would not be examples of protected speech.
The difference is a teacher or school official cannot freely express their religious ideas or lead a prayer in school. This would violate the same Amendment according to the landmark court case Abington v. Shempp (1963). If a public school official does, it is seen as an establishment of religion by the school.
Other people complain that there is no religion being taught in the curriculum. Well it is allowed. The same Abington v. Shempp (1963) court case never said to keep religion totally out of the curriculum. Studying about religion is permissible (ie., comparative religions, the history of religion, religion as a significant aspect of our culture). The point being, public school is not a place to be indoctrinated or proselytized to any particular religion. If you want that, go to church.
Many people don’t know, but students actually have the right to leave school property while school is in session to go to receive the religious instruction of their choice off campus. Another landmark court case Zorach v. Clausen (1952) established this as constitutional for students. This instruction should be off campus and not taught by any school staff, but there are no other restrictions on the type of religious instruction received. There’s one most people probably don’t know about.
Non-curriculum related groups or clubs are allowed to meet before or after school. This would include any religious groups that would want to participate. The only restrictions according to the Equal Access Act (1984) are the school cannot discriminate against any group unless is goes against the moral standards of the community or if it goes against the educational mission of the school.
So thinking back to that fiery preacher on the AM radio, I don’t know if that man has ever been in a public school before. I also doubt that students, parents, and even school officials know their full rights and know the precedents established by landmark court cases on the subject of religion in public schools.
Filed under: Complaints & Rants
Gang activity in the South is surprisingly high. Crips, Bloods, Gangster Disciples, Vice Lords, Brown Pride, Sur 13, on and on the list could go, subsets upon subsets of each one abound. If you know what you’re looking for you’ll see it everywhere. From cryptic graffiti messages, numerical codes, hand signs, handshakes, color-coded outfits, shoelaces, bandanas, etc., etc…
Each gang has their own way of doing things. This goes beyond what is typically thought of about gangs – violence, drugs, prisons, guns, protection. It is about identity, survival, family, and even education. The founders and the “O.G.s” (original gangsters) pride themselves on having a unique way to define and carry out these goals called knowledge. Knowledge is everything, and is kept very secret. It often what establishes rank or hierarchy among gang members – the more you know, the more powerful you become – knowledge is power.
The South is open territory. There is no true established hierarchy or organization among these gangs, as opposed to the East Coast and West Coast and North where areas and “knowledge” are established. Gang members who move here with their families or the countless wannabes start up more loosely established groups claiming to be one of the above mentioned groups. The interesting thing is that most of these people do not know very much or do not have much knowledge, so what they do and stand for often just comes down to violence, drugs and guns. They really don’t know what they’re doing or what they stand for.
Well if the gangs in the South are not largely organized, that sounds like a good thing, right? Not exactly. With no hierarchy and no established order comes and need by gang members or wannabes to become established. This often means they will do whatever they can to prove themselves.
In my experience the wannabes are more dangerous than the gang members. The wannabes are constantly looking at the gang members for approval. If the wannabe can prove himself, he’ll get in. This could include hitting a teacher or administrator, fighting with a rival gang member, shooting, robbing or killing someone, holding drugs, etc. And if the person is Special Ed., they are much more susceptible to being taken advantage of because might not be mentally equipped to know exactly what they are doing, what they were asked to carry, or what they were told to do and the consequences for doing such things. A person who is Special Ed. has been rejected so much, they will do anything to be accepted, even if it means degrading themselves, getting into trouble, or worse.
All my students are in Special Ed. Most are from the inner city. Some are gang members, many are wannabes. I deal with this everyday. Many people would never give them a thought. They would say something like “weren’t those kids raised right? Where were their parents?” Good question. Divorced, dead, in prison, on drugs, in prostitution, bringing home different partners every night, being physically, verbally and sexually abusive. And in poverty, always in poverty. If any of you get the chance, you should drive through “the hood.” It can be very enlightening.
If you’ve ever been in the hood, or talked to someone who has, they’ll say that there are some people who reside there that are not so nice. They are always looking for prey, an easy target. Who is an easy target? Someone by themselves, a kid, someone who is Special Ed. If you don’t want to be a victim, you join the pack.
I’m going to pick this up again later….
Filed under: Motivation
I probably listen to this song at least once everyday when I drive to work. It’s from my favorite band – Madball. They’re the godfathers of NYHC. This is how I get my mind right when I need the motivation.
“Adapt And Overcome” – by Madball
Your worst enemy is your self
Who do you believe in?
Well I believe, I believe in me
Will you fight, or give in?
I’ll stop at nothing, to be something
Who do they believe in?
In themselves, they believe in me
How will you lead them?
By making something out of nothing
Self doubt has been getting the best of me
For way to long
I’ve been fighting this, fighting this all my life
Now I’m ready for it to be gone
I know I have the courage
I know I have the strength too
I know I have the will
The power to do what I want to do
Adapt and overcome
Rise above all those mistakes and flaws
I’ll learn from it, and then
I’ll climb every obstacle and every wall
Who do you believe in?
Believe in your self now
Who do you believe in?
Well I believe, I believe in me
Will you fight, or give in?
I’ll stop at nothing, to be something
Who do they believe in?
In themselves, the believe in me
How will you lead them?
By making something out of nothing
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So much to say…not any good way to be organized about it. Let me just jump right in…
A new school year starts tomorrow. The students will sleepily stumble onto their buses. The buses will bounce them to our door. The students will depart the buses. The students will be thoroughly searched, passed over with a metal detector, eyed over carefully and talked with to catch any flint of something not right with them…
This scene happens every school day where I work. I do not work not work in a public school. I do not work in the suburbs. I work in a school for students with severe behavior problems. Most teachers, most people, most anybody would fear these students…
…gang members and wannabes, bi-polar disorders, conduct disorders, autistic, drug offenders, gun offenders, blade offenders, learning disabled, mentally retarded, can’t read, violent, profane, difficult, frustrating…the list goes on…
This is my calling. I teach these students – the ones who were thrown away and who fell through the cracks. I teach more than academics, I teach behavior. I have to. They never were. This is a mission. I love my job…
These are words I tell myself on the day before school starts. I’ve got to hit the ground running. There is so much ground to make up. My students are so far behind. Some people say for many processes, that it is “a marathon, not a sprint.” But last year was a sprint, and the years before that, and I know there will be no slowing down.
I sprained my ankle last Tuesday, on the first day back for teachers at our building. Nothing daredevilish, just stepped off a curb into a parking lot dip and heard a loud pop. I’ve been limping along since then, and now I’m sick and have a lot of snot and I just feel like crap. Not a very good start. It doesn’t matter. Tomorrow it begins.
Filed under: General
Everyone else is doing it, right? I guess it’s my time now…
I am a Special Education Teacher. I’ve seen a lot of crazy things. I have a lot of crazy ideas. You’ll be hearing from me soon…